Friday, November 4, 2011

Babies Don't Keep

One week from today my baby will turn one.  I feel like the last year has gone by in a whirlwind.  He was born right on the brink of holiday season, we moved when he was two and a half months old, and then my husband left on deployment the day he turned six months.  Since then I have been torn between wanting time to speed up and slow down simultaneously.  My husband has missed so much of his babyhood and I just can't imagine how he feels.  I sent him a video the other day and while he loves every single thing I send him, the guilt he is feeling right now is palpable over the phone.  It breaks my heart.

I just can't believe my baby will be a toddler.  It sounds so cliche, but the older I get the faster time flies.  And I just wish that I could have my cuddly newborn back for one more day - night wake ups and all.

My sweet boy, 1 day old

For the next week I am going to soak up every moment.  I know that there isn't some magic thing that happens on his first birthday, but there is something about the transition that makes me incredibly sad.  I love that he is growing up and so happy and active, but I will miss the snuggles and the smells of babyhood.

  Cleaning and scrubbing will wait ’till tomorrow, but children grow up, as I’ve learned to my sorrow. So quiet down cobwebs! Dust go to sleep! I’m rocking my baby. Babies don’t keep.

– Ruth Hamilton


My Bottle's Up! said...

awww jill, i'm tearing up reading this. oooof, my heart.

Megan said...

Aww. I love this!

Lori said...

Just can't believe it either. And seriously...that you brought him to our shower when he was so itty bitty!!! Where HAS that time gone??? Now, LUKE is almost one for Pete's sake!!!! Remember putting them together side by side on the floor at my house? Sniff, sniff.... xoxoxo

Hi, I'm Jill!

Hi, I'm Jill!
Extrovert. Mom of two. Wife of a cute Naval Aviator. Lover of wine. When I'm not chasing my two kids around town you will find me writing, taking too many photos, and researching the ten future areas the Navy could potentially (but probably won't) PCS us. We are fish out of water, landlocked at 7,000 feet. For now.

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